I am scared… I am scared that when I show interest in him, he won’t be interested in me anymore.
Why is a decision so hard to make?
Let’s be realistic. If I compare him with my crush, he is a much better guy. But I still don’t know why I prefer my crush over him. Probably because I met him first.
When my crush lets his girlfriend run after him at a prom, this guy gives me a kiss on my cheek and holds me tight. It is only that he had a girlfriend then, and probably kisses all the girls. So one isn’t interested in anyone and the other is interested in everyone. Both is bothering me.
Crush: He always seems to know what I think, while we don’t even have conversations often. I can’t say we are on the same level, since we don’t have good conversations. But he knows what I think though. Can’t explain it. He saw I was hiding behind him because a man was starring at me, while all I did was to took a step backwards. He saw I didn’t want to enter that metro door because of that creepy man. So, how can you say that a guy like him isn’t thoughtful enough? Other guys wouldn’t have seen it.
Other guy: He is generous in his attitude. A weird description, I know. But he doesn’t mind doing things, such as cleaning up something if he has the time and notices it needs to be cleaned up. He remembered I bought tickets for the pool party, which was cancelled, and made sure someone warned me, while my chairman didn’t even warn me, who saw me daily. It says a lot about his heart. But he probably won’t notice the things I think. But I can have good conversations with him instead.